your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb

As hard as it is for me to comprehend this, my sweet baby will be starting preschool later this year.

i dread it. like, really dread it.

i keep thinking of ways to get out of it.

just so that i can have one more year at home with him.

but then i realize those thoughts are coming from a place of selfishness.

i even thought about homeschooling him. but i quickly realized this was just not a great idea. i don't feel led to do so, and i really don't think i could get much accomplished with his very own fan club (ahem...harper) by our sides.

i think Carson would thrive in a school setting. he LOVES to be around other children. he loves the idea going to "school."

i'm pretty sure he'll give me a quick wave on the first day of school, while i cry an ugly cry.

separation anxiety. at it's finest.

when i think about "letting him go" i ponder on whether or not preschool is really a necessity?

he's known everything he needs to learn in preschool for years now.

i've been blessed (and sometimes burdened ;) with a child who has rain-man memory. seriously. i'm not trying to brag or tell you that my kid is a genius, but i am not exaggerating when i say that the kid can memorize ANYTHING. which obviously aids in learning.

as i type this, Carson is sitting on the couch teaching harper geography, specifically that the golden gate bridge is located in san "phran-kicko" (his knowledge exceeds his speech :) he has been interested lately about where states are located at so i printed him out a map of the US and the kid about fell over in excitement.

i do not share the same enthusiasm.

anyways, point being, as these thoughts circulate my brain, i struggle with whether preschool is even worth it. will he actually benefit from going? or will he simply be "baby-sat" for five hours a day?

anybody have thoughts on this? i'm kind of new to the whole school thing, so any thoughts are appreciated!

ps- anyone know which song the title of the post comes from?? if you get the lyrics stuck in your head, then your welcome. ;)